i have lost the interest to post here , it used to be exciting but now it's just a joke

i feel talentless

thank you so much for anyone who gave a damn
i appreciated every comment

I can't say I ever really had a following, so my voice is somewhat muted. With that however I do have something to say.
I joined deviantart for the simple enjoyment of being able to see such amazing and beautifully unique artworks. It was a simple pleasure to sign onto at the time, a wonderful site. A site devoted to true artists because without those artists it would not be standing today. Over the years it became clear to me it wasn't about truly amazing art it was about popularity and money. I've seen artists come and go and I followed some of my favorites, but now it's become clear to me that things will be changing for the worse. This community is dwindling, so many of the artists I have been watching for years, way before I even created an account have left. Truly amazing artists that had so much to show- forced to look for something that respected their talent not only how much they could make off of them. But I guess it's why they call it starving artist, because it's not what you can do it's how well you can be marketed.

sorry to see so many of you go, it was fun.

So I've discovered the problem with photoshop now I need a solution.
The problem is that photoshop and my computer configuration are not matched up. Colors appear lighter in photoshop when I'm coloring so therefor I only see the actual colors when I save and how dark and dingy they really are. So how do I fix that?
What a pain in the butt this is...

I don't know what to do, after several forum posts and emails to fellow photoshop users I'm still in the same rut as I was before.
I still can't figure out my configuration settings in photoshop and on my monitor(if that is even the problem) and my work is still continuing to lose the color quality it once had with every save of a finished work.
I wish I could find some kind of answer or at least be a little more computer literate...I thought I was but this continues to baffle me and really ruins my creativity- not that I had any before but at least before I was excited about submitting, now I can count on creating relatively okay works in photoshop and submitting them with 90% quality and detail destroyed. It's such a pain in the ass!!!!!
I know I don't have many watchers or many viewers in general of my page but please someone help me.

Listening to:
Dj Shadow-preemptive strike
just saw Jean-pierre jeunet's new movie
"a very long engagement" not as visually amazing as Amelie but still breath-taking as usual. It had it's moments and of course it's charm, and Audrey Tatou was beautiful as always.
Something about his movies that leave me sad and happy at the same time. they just hit a button inside of me that I can't explain.
Can't wait for the DVD, it's going to be a longgggggg time though-grrrrr....
I suggest it to anyone it starts on the 22nd. GO SEE IT!!!!!!!!